See when I was born my heart had fluid around it [eww], & I did not get enough O2 in my brain. So they had to hock me up to O2 & give me some, the doctor cut it off short of me being blind, so I grew up with half a brain dead [eww] & the other half ok [pew]. So all throughout my life from a on to, I had problems. So when I was a my parents gave me a so to work on my motor skills, which became a hobby! But I was told by my parents later, that the doctors had said I would never;
WALK
TALK
SEE
HEAR
HAVE A HOBBY
& people would tell my parents they should put me away & forget about me. But they did not put me away, they put them away because we moved & the neighbors even had sicked their dog (& it was a police dog too) on me. (My parents even called the police which they did nothing.) So my hobby has grown & still is with me to this day, so to all the people who told my parents that I can't do anything! 
My school life;
Went to Special Ed & normal Ed & the kids & teachers did not do much, kids would make fun of me in normal school & put me in the trash in Special Ed.
My job life;
I would go to training centers then after I been there, I would go to others. But none of them really trained for today's work. Here is the rest of it;
I would misunderstand things then quit, I was kicked out of 1 place were my parents even came to get me [across the bay bridge - east coast]. But the head boss of the staff did not even believe my parents, he believed her [staff]. I even had witnesses that the head staff maybe paid them to lie, so my parents took me home. Then I got in to other jobs that did not last, then on 8/28/94 [Sunday] in church the pastor gave a sermon I will never forget called 'keeping promise', so I promised this one woman I would check out her job [worked in an elementary school]. So I did & volunteered there, then the boss [principal] hired me for 2 hours for & from 1994-2001 it has been like this;
1994-95 = VOLUNTEERED
1995-96 = PAID
1996-97 = PAID
1997-98 = PAID
1998-99 = PAID
2000-01 = PAID
My hours started 1996 = 2 hours then went up to 3 hours then 4 hours then 2 hours, all because of my rent problem. I was living in HUD section 8 & the more, the more you had to pay for rent which was called back rent. I had problems there because as most of you heard a few years back some woman named ROBIN stole from HUD. So I had thought the same thing will happen with me, that all my was being stolling. So what did I do? I started taking days off here & there from work. Then to add to all my problems, I got [married]. My family did not like it + she [wife] wanted things her way as in;
GOING TO CHURCH 24/7 [church is good ], but there was little or no time for us alone. Her schedule was like this;
MONDAY [CLASS IN CHURCH]
TUESDAY [SAME ^]
WEDNESDAY [SAME^]
THURSDAY [SAME^]
FRIDAY [SAME^]
SATURDAY [SPECIAL @ CHURCH]
SUNDAY [CHURCH DAY ANYWAY]
She even did not go to work & went to the malls, & she had other problems like;
MEDICAL+
& she did not have money to pay rent or bills, so I felt sorry for her & gave her ($300) to pay her rent off. So did she spend it on her rent? No, she spent it on herself!
So we got married on June 30th 2001, & I left her on July 30th 2001. So I did go back after a few months [while my family were gone] to see if she changed, did she?
NO!
So after a few days of with the family, I left her on November 7th 2001 & now it is January 15th 2003 & I just my lawyer to get the divorce going. So now I wait, & I waited 1 year like the law said & I hope now after I file I do not wait another year.
I am waiting for the lawyer to call me on the divorce now!
I also am trying to volunteer, but so far no one has called.
How come when your mind is damaged, no one seems to want you? I may not be so bad like others, but for me it is worse because I am a rare case.
I thank you &
HAPPY NEW YEAR 03!!!!
GOD BLESS
Dear father in heaven not my will, but your will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Amen
GOD LOVES YOU & SO DO I!
HAVE A BLESSED DAY!